Sometimes I Wonder Why I Had Kids

I’m going to get real here for a moment.  Motherhood, well parenthood to be exact, can be rough sometimes!

Let me start out by saying I love my kids more than anything in the world but oh my gosh, there’s days when I want to curl up into a ball and cry.  This morning was one of those days!

I have three very little kids who for the most part are all very dependent on me for everything.  In the mere 5 minutes it took me to change the baby’s diaper and pick out the kids clothes for the day, my boys managed to rip the upstairs gate out of the wall.  When I asked my four-year-old how that happened he responded “bubby and I were standing on the gate.”  I can’t even begin to tell you how many times we’ve told them not to do that.

That wasn’t all, my 2-year-old was in the middle of potty training while battling a bad case of diarrhea…yea not a good mix!  Let me just say he’s adamant about taking his own diaper off when he’s ready to go on the potty, however he can’t exactly tell the different between a fart and having a case of the runs but I’ll let you figure out the rest to that story.  Add in the constant fights of who has to eat on the yellow plate, no one can find their shoes when we’re already 5 minutes late for school and lots and LOTS of whining and crying and you’ve pretty much figured out my daily life.

So my question is WHY?  Why does anyone decide to have children!?

We could’ve been DINKS (duel income no kids) living a good, easy life.  We could’ve driven whatever cars we wanted, got new clothes and the backyard we’ve been dreaming of, or even better gone on dates multiple times in one week (crazy I know).

Let’s be real, we’ve all thought about it one time or another.  About how much simpler life would’ve been.  About how we could’ve been traveling the world or built up an amazing retirement.  I’ll be honest…I’ve thought about it a couple times since having kids.  People never told me it would be this hard, but honestly I probably wouldn’t have listened anyways.  No one can really understand until they’re in it.

Here’s the thing though…I wouldn’t trade it for the world!  When I’m sad my son is the one to come lay in my lap and tell me how much he loves me.  It’s my daughter that puts a smile on my face first thing every morning.  It’s the laughter I get from them all that makes life so wonderful.

My life before kids was good, I mean really good!  I didn’t have any worries and pretty much had anything I wanted but the moment I had my first child I realized I had never felt that kind of love before and without it I would be lost.

If you’re not quite a mother yet: it’s going to be hard, but we’ve all done it and it’s so worth it!

If you’re going through this time in your life now: there’s a million of us right there with you!  We need each other to get through those bad days.  One day you will laugh about it and tell your kids all the crap they put you through.

If you’ve been there done that and have since moved into the next phase of your life: WE NEED YOU!  I’m serious.  We need you to tell us it’s okay.  Give us advice.  Let us know this is just a phase and there’s nothing we’re doing wrong as mothers.

Let’s stick together and lift each other up.  We already have little tyrants making simple tasks seem like the front lines of war that we don’t need any other obstacles or stress thrown our way.

To all the mothers and mothers to be out there I raise a glass of wine to you, once I’ve gotten all my tyrants down to bed, and salute all your hard work.

Cheers to you…we’ve got this!

XOXO,
Jackie